i tried to prepare for the greatest setback ever.. but, it seems tat i've made up my mind, n leave u.. im angry with u.. but at the same time, i dont want to be angry with u, coz i just want u to be happy.. hopefully, by leaving u, u can be happier.. u'll have my blessings.. however, i wish tat we still can be friends, or even god-sibling.. i really dont know where to start.. whatever i say, u'll always say that i've lost half of ur heart.. is tat true? am i tat bad? i think im patient enuff.. n my patience have limits.. anyway, thx for loving me once.. tho almost all of ur promises are empty, i'll still forgive u.. coz i love u n i care for u.. aku sayang kamu.. i only want the best for u.. n i want u to be happy.. if being with tat girl makes u happy, i'll let u be with her.. let this blog be a memory, from me to u.. if u dont want it, im sorry, i want to keep it.. coz i know i have once loved u but it ended just one day after valentine's day.. if shud i disappear from the world, think nth of it.. its for myself.. to end all my miseries.. im tired of living.. im really tired.. im tired of my sad life.. its tiring.. i feel tired.. i really feel like ending it soon.. all i can do now is to cry.. i can do nth abt it.. coz tats how hard it feels.. n how difficult it is to accept.. worry not, u r not to blame.. i blame myself for everything that has been going on.. if i did something wrong to u, im sorry.. i didnt mean to do so.. i wanted to give u something that represents everyting, including my feelings, including after i leave u.. but i dont think its necessary coz u r not mine anymore.. n u have the choice of not knowing how i feel.. but one thing i wish to tell u, im quite disappointed in ur promises.. they're all empty..now, as a fren or even sister.. if u still regard me as one of those, i wanna give u some advice.. never two-time anyone, coz not everyone can be as calm and as forgiving as me.. im not saying that im kind hearted, tp karna aku sayang kamu, aku mau the best for u.. aku ga mau kamu menyesal d kemudian hari.. cukup skali, aku saja yg sakit.. karna, ga semua cewe bs memaafkan cowo yg mendua in dia.. ga semua.. malah, hampir semua cewe ga bs maafin.. 9 out of 10 cant.. skr, temen ku blg aku goblok karna aku ngelepasin kamu.. tp, aku blg k mrk, i dont mind, as long as u r happy.. aku menerima semua omongan, ocehan n semua nya yg mrk ngmg d blakang aku.. aku tutup 1 mata.. my intention is only 1.. for u to be happy, despite all of my sadness n sufferings.. kyk nya, udah cukup aku ngmg nya.. mgkn kamu pikir aku cari perhatian ato sok baek, tp, semua itu adalah jujur dr hati ku.. mgkn kamu ga percaya, tp, Tuhan tau kalo aku jujur.. aku harap kamu msh bs regard aku as fren or even sister..skali lg, makasih for loving me.. even tho u took wats important to me, i dont mind as long as u r happy.. sorry for all the mistakes that i did to u.. didnt mean to do them at all.. n never meant to leave u or hurt u.. cos i only want u to be happy.. i never mean to leave u, but i think u'll be better n happier if i leave u.. thean u wont have any hindrance to love anyone else, whose better from me.. gud luck n hopefully we still can stay as fren or even god-siblings.. n mudah2an kamu mau trima apa yg aku blg ke kamu.. my advice.. ok? anyway, stay happy always n may God bless u.. Have a blessed life yah.. jgn kyk aku yg cuma tau sedih.. hehe.. ok deh.. c u next time.. ok? tha tha dedekkk.. (kalo kamu mau nganggep aku cici n kamu kasih aku panggil kamu gt..)