i tried to prepare for the greatest setback ever.. but, it seems tat i've made up my mind, n leave u.. im angry with u.. but at the same time, i dont want to be angry with u, coz i just want u to be happy.. hopefully, by leaving u, u can be happier.. u'll have my blessings.. however, i wish tat we still can be friends, or even god-sibling.. i really dont know where to start.. whatever i say, u'll always say that i've lost half of ur heart.. is tat true? am i tat bad? i think im patient enuff.. n my patience have limits.. anyway, thx for loving me once.. tho almost all of ur promises are empty, i'll still forgive u.. coz i love u n i care for u.. aku sayang kamu.. i only want the best for u.. n i want u to be happy.. if being with tat girl makes u happy, i'll let u be with her.. let this blog be a memory, from me to u.. if u dont want it, im sorry, i want to keep it.. coz i know i have once loved u but it ended just one day after valentine's day.. if shud i disappear from the world, think nth of it.. its for myself.. to end all my miseries.. im tired of living.. im really tired.. im tired of my sad life.. its tiring.. i feel tired.. i really feel like ending it soon.. all i can do now is to cry.. i can do nth abt it.. coz tats how hard it feels.. n how difficult it is to accept.. worry not, u r not to blame.. i blame myself for everything that has been going on.. if i did something wrong to u, im sorry.. i didnt mean to do so.. i wanted to give u something that represents everyting, including my feelings, including after i leave u.. but i dont think its necessary coz u r not mine anymore.. n u have the choice of not knowing how i feel.. but one thing i wish to tell u, im quite disappointed in ur promises.. they're all empty..now, as a fren or even sister.. if u still regard me as one of those, i wanna give u some advice.. never two-time anyone, coz not everyone can be as calm and as forgiving as me.. im not saying that im kind hearted, tp karna aku sayang kamu, aku mau the best for u.. aku ga mau kamu menyesal d kemudian hari.. cukup skali, aku saja yg sakit.. karna, ga semua cewe bs memaafkan cowo yg mendua in dia.. ga semua.. malah, hampir semua cewe ga bs maafin.. 9 out of 10 cant.. skr, temen ku blg aku goblok karna aku ngelepasin kamu.. tp, aku blg k mrk, i dont mind, as long as u r happy.. aku menerima semua omongan, ocehan n semua nya yg mrk ngmg d blakang aku.. aku tutup 1 mata.. my intention is only 1.. for u to be happy, despite all of my sadness n sufferings.. kyk nya, udah cukup aku ngmg nya.. mgkn kamu pikir aku cari perhatian ato sok baek, tp, semua itu adalah jujur dr hati ku.. mgkn kamu ga percaya, tp, Tuhan tau kalo aku jujur.. aku harap kamu msh bs regard aku as fren or even sister..skali lg, makasih for loving me.. even tho u took wats important to me, i dont mind as long as u r happy.. sorry for all the mistakes that i did to u.. didnt mean to do them at all.. n never meant to leave u or hurt u.. cos i only want u to be happy.. i never mean to leave u, but i think u'll be better n happier if i leave u.. thean u wont have any hindrance to love anyone else, whose better from me.. gud luck n hopefully we still can stay as fren or even god-siblings.. n mudah2an kamu mau trima apa yg aku blg ke kamu.. my advice.. ok? anyway, stay happy always n may God bless u.. Have a blessed life yah.. jgn kyk aku yg cuma tau sedih.. hehe.. ok deh.. c u next time.. ok? tha tha dedekkk.. (kalo kamu mau nganggep aku cici n kamu kasih aku panggil kamu gt..)

Yesterday evening I was shocked watching CNN-IBN news channel which claimed to have done an investigation. Two reporters as under disguise as drug traffickers go to Uttar Pradesh Minister for Backward Classes and request for his help. They went with hidden cameras (technology improvement has to appreciated). After long discussion, Minister accepts for transporting drugs in his official vehicle to Delhi. His quoted price is 20lakhs for every 1crore worth drugs!
Worst is he said another Minister incharge for Prisons also does drug trafficking!

Way to go Indian Politics. When will this stop? Where is this all leading to?
The Election Commision has to strictly prohibit all candidates with criminal record/pending criminal cases to contest in elections. Will all Political Parties come to a consensus on this.

Indian Express print edition carried an article on same but it is not to be found in the online edition.

Tags: Uttar Pradesh, India

Un dia en el campo de Paco, en Cordoba, con un sol estupendo, lo pasamos fenomenal, como siempre, ya que la hospitalidad es un rasgo caracteristico de los Merina.

I know it’s been a good few days since I last Blogged but that’s because I’ve been trying to hack through my own leg with a long board in a desperate attempt to catch up with our hapless cameraman in the skateboarding injury competition. No luck so far though, maybe I should take the board for a spin on the M4.
Boardfree is infiltrating my dreams now, last night I dreamt my old hairdresser from Selby was practising for Pop Idol but broke off to berate me for not sending her more stuff on Boardfree, this was followed by the revelation that an old school colleague of mine was in fact a lesbian. What does this all mean? Maybe I’m feeling guilty about not sending off my own Boardfree press releases yet, but where Pop Idol and lesbians come into it I’ve no idea.
Looks like I’ve sorted out my wedding suit, went to Moss Bros this weekend and tried on the wrong style jacket with the wrong sized trousers and a cravat that was the wrong colour, but decided what suit I wanted anyway. Still haven’t sorted out my wedding night accommodation though, I’m going to get such a beating if I don’t do that soon.
A quick update on the rest of my life, in case anyone’s interested. I’ve got the Nazi’s pinned down in a barn somewhere in Holland and have taken a break to try and win Serie A with Inter Milan. Been on another archaeological farm visit, in the middle of lambing season so the fluffy little blighters were gambolling all over the place, very cute, had a hard time trying to maintain my manly Indiana Jones image. Went up to Yorkshire to celebrate my Mum’s birthday, hello mum. I haven’t scored anymore goals for Murton, although I did hit the post on Saturday, we lost again. Went to the Student’s Union fashion show on Friday night, helped out on the Boardfree stall, I’m a poor salesman. Celebrated 6 amazing years with Rae, unfortunately I was too ill and broke on the day to do anything romantic, must do better on her birthday.
That’s about it I think, I might try to find some photo’s to start sprucing up my blogs now.